As days pass by, just as how today closes itself I try to make peace with who I am, what I do and why I do what I do. I look forward to a night of restful sleep mindless of what is in store for me tomorrow. I look forward to feeling happier. Yes, I agree happiness is a state of mind. But training the mind to find happiness is daunting, especially when happiness is linked to expectations; fulfilling a want or desire. It's our ego talking, if we believe it isn't linked to one. Take any aspect of your lives and vet it against this parameter.
We seek intervention and pray. But aren't we again negotiating with the higher power to fulfill a desire? "Just let this happen...and I will forever remain faithful to you". I am tired as I write this. I wonder why I work and work so hard. For what? I recall my childhood.. As a 4 year old I remember my mother getting unwell and taken to a hospital.As a 6 year old I remember my parents waking up at 4a.m to fill water since it only came then. As an 8 year old I recall, I had just one 'extra' shoe apart from my school shoes. I had to take part in a school program and the teacher asked us to wear one of those 'fancy heeled shoes'. I asked my parents and was upset being told that the existing one would be polished and that I could use that. As a 12 year old I recall my dad having a conversation with me by a roadside shop "My job isn't going great, I may have to probably leave it. I am worried and I don't know whether I will have the money to be able to fulfill your little desires. Sorry if may not be able to...but I will try". Every alternate year of my childhood I recall my mom falling ill. My parents have worked very very hard to get me to where I am. Nothing has transpired easy.....there have been numerous challenges...but I managed to find my way out..I managed to find happiness! I managed well...to feel happier! Yes in a comparative sense...compared to what I am today. And I wonder why so? I am financially fine, have adequate 'materialism' to support a good lifestyle...still...there is no peace of mind... I don't have the strength to find happiness.
And I wonder why so?Maybe some answers here?
Money doesn't buy happiness
A job doesn't give it too
It doesn't come through name or fame
For at the end, it's all the same
What mattered perhaps was Time
Time spent with someone who mattered
Time spent with someone who mattered
To share some love and make life better
For at the end, we all live for what?
When rich or poor, success or failure...all comes to naught
