The last few weeks have been very rewarding in so many ways..... I keep reminding myself...I am immensely blessed. Stars aligned and we could visit the children's orphanage that I so wanted to go to and take chikki along. and was I not moved...I came home and cried quite a bit. That whole image of walking in, seeing children welcome me, I walked up to the stairs of the girl's house...and I saw those little girls all scattered around, living out of trunks...such a sign of impermanence...and then the scene of the little one trying to comb her hair and putting those little clips all by herself and then looking up and smiling at me, looking at her....umm...I crumbled mentally. No one to hold her little cheek, jaw and comb her hair and to hug her and remind her that she is wanted.... 😔
Those children were wonderful in every way..so well mannered, so adorable. I saw a writing on their board with some questions.. Maybe some lady/therapist comes it seems 1) What makes you really happy 2) what makes you sad. I really wonder what answers they had for these......
For them it felt another .."here you go...visitors have come..now they will smile , act all warmed up...take some photos to go put up somewhere and then leave...and we will be back to our slump"...they even asked me "are you celebrating something"..... no one there to celebrate their little moments. It was a kutty one's birthday too the next day. They ate their plate clean, washed it..put it back. So many children are there like this around... somehow every time I recall these moments, I tell myself and I will tell myself
I may not have somethings..(I know what Im referring to)....but thats ok. I have MORE THAN enough
I hope these moments have left some impression in my chikki....who I am so confident, will grow up to be an amazing boy
