There are many things that can rattle you up in a day. I go through this quite often and then end up in tears at times, with everything just accumulating in my head..thinking about things like, who will be there for me when I grow old, what companionship would I have , would I not. I feel scared at times..money definitely cant buy many things right? I of course know that, I dont run behind money ; infact I know how futile it is in moments when I dont get the support I need from people around, when I just look for someone who shares my wavelength to sit and talk, not judge me, not taunt me....lets me be who I am. and I dont find it many a time...I feel awful, but then God reminds me....of soooo many things that I have going fine in my life too while many dont have many things. So its always about- reminding oneself of HOW blessed we are and HOW many people dont have what we take for granted
My own dad--- who lives in uncertainty every other day/night of what might come upon on the health front with my mom.
My own mom...who is far from being ok. God knows when that sofa gets stained, when her cough kicks in, when her bladder pains, when her legs will ever stop paining.......
and so many more....why do I even need more ?My issues are petty
I have a lovely adorable son who brightens me up in so many days. He fills the void of the company I look for, of the human around whom Id like to be, of the person who is sensitive and of the person who Im certain and pray ..will grow up to be a FINE man one day
You do soo many cute things my dear one. You surprise me in ways I can never think of. You have a heart, you have a mind and above all ...a trait so missing in many...empathy. May you preserve this Gold treasure of yours.....you are BLESSED my cutie
Look at this!
Last evening, you insisted you'd come out to a brewery- I told u no- but I guess u wanted to come out to eat something. In the auto - u tried to make me feel better , after a small tiff with pappa and you kept saying, "dont worry ..see other people on the road...ur much better"..aww my cutie.. then u told me to come more inside and not get wet. When we were not allowed to come in, you had the courtesy to apologize...my ! it takes a heart chikki, to think this ..do u even know that ?!
Then we come home and I make a dinner for u..potato wrap ( I dont pride myself at all on food ! ) Yet you praised me so much , gave me such a thoughtful kiss and told me a thank you. I have seen that kuttu, every time you do realize these things, you ALWAYS say a thank you.💘 . You just rock
Then this Monday we had a bit of an argument..You did not let me use your room and then I left in a flurry to office. evening I was welcomed by this...... i cannot tell you how much Im proud ..i have so much to learn from you. Your GENEROUS with your apology and keep your little ego aside...its a gift da
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