Kindness & Karma

I read somewhere that's its easy to be rude, tough to be kind. The world will be better to live in, if we are kind to each other.

I feel I fall so flat here- my tempers are always on the rise, I feel burnt out and I let myself feel so- because work is the only thing I fall back on 'for myself' ; for 'my identity' ; for my 'independence'..... but its having an impact Im sure on my kuttu-- on whom I get pissed off quite easily---- cause Im also tired and I dont get a 'confidence-giving' ecosystem of 'dont worry- we will figure it out 'together' '- Its almost always- ok dont do if u dont want to / or I would not do it if I were you..... but so many years.....so many...i have worked ..worked v v hard........given the family a roof to stay in peacefully....given much comfort to my son......... I dont know God....why do I seek validation on this...not validation, but acknowledgment.... I thought I had got better....well I have got better, but situations come and remind me otherwise. 

Im sorry to my son- I shout a lot in my tiredness....for what...bringing up my angst of someone else on his small soul. Im sorry God..Im truly sorry. 

I know we shouldnt expect- I will try not to- Let karma take its course.. I will let it be.