They say whatever happens around you..can continue to...but how your mind reacts and shapes your mood---determines your own reactions to the situation. This is so true.... You know what...I got my new car yesterday...nothing that Im happy or anything ; I am grateful thats all and amazed at how much God lets me 'have it' all. Just pure gratitude. Like sometimes I am in awe--at how blessed I can get. I hope I dont ever take all this for granted..ever.
I was constantly asked ..party party...frankly nothing excites me. I dont know God...im sorry. I feel burntout-- I dont want to use such words.. but I do feel that way. I really do. I am feeling burnt out of this constant living 'under threat' mindset..I read somewhere my mind has the same reaction to everything at times...like a cheetah is after me. Its unable to distinguish.
Im not trying to use /reinforce such theory upon me...but somehow I feel like accepting it, because this is highly similar to how I feel
Today morning it felt another 'attempt' to go out for breakfast...So much of chaos- Nirvaan not wanting to go to a place...S I think at some level not wanting to go at all.... you know what God....I DONT WANT to go anywhere...I want to be happy with where I am...ironical..I HAVE EVERYTHING...we have EVERYTHING..EVERY DAMN THING..and then there is no smile, there is barking all around..chaos...shouting... I dont want anything God....If I ever 'ask' you for anything..remind me God..that I dont need anything...
I dont want to go out anywhere unhappy. somehow God nothing gives me excitement-- maybe somewhere I feel this is all an illusion......
Happiness is a state of mind
Not when we get something or not
Not when we have something or not
It is a state of calm
Knowing that you are enough, you have more than enough
and that I will finally not take anything along with me
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