Small things....

A well spent Sunday- trying to sketch and to keep my mind busy like the bug- rather away from unwanted negative thoughts. Did not realize that I would be pleasantly surprised with the output! Life is about doing something- something that makes it feel worthwhile-either to yourself or to others. A day spent doing nothing makes me feel really frustrated. Glad I could get down to do this. Grateful for small blessings -time, energy, frame of mind & good health

Pausing.....

It's been a great deal of time gone by, never to return. I sometimes wonder who am I through these years. The constant thought of what defines me? They say -How you face a situation is more important than what the situation is? I evaluate myself through this yardstick and wonder how did I fare? There have been a myriad of situations- professionally, personally, leaving me feel very tired. Tired of battling it out, judging myself, holding myself accountable and feeling there is no light at the end of the tunnel. Dumbledore's words -Happiness can be found in the darkest of times, if only one remembers to turn on the light seems false. I dont think there is light....or maybe I cant find it. 

Over the years i've lost more than I've gained. I've lost my confidence, my inner voice rarely talks to me, i'm unable to find meaning in many things that I do....life seems to be just pushing me ahead and I move on goalless & without purpose. Where am I? What am I? What defines me? I wish some answers unfold, showing me the light. For now, I have hope- in good action, in karma. Someday sometime- this will all make sense- the dots will connect....I do my duty